Monday, May 5, 2008

When does the world slow down?

Originally uploaded by syd0the0kid

It seems like I've been running for the last 5 months. Work is crazy (almost out of control) but it's always like this this time of year. It's hard work putting together two conferences, a festival (don't call it a picnic), the church anniversary and VBS. I can honestly say work is never boring. I think I've said that before. In fact , that's how I would describe it on a regular bases.

Anyway, so my summer plans are totally unknown at this point. ATA going belly up really jack up my plans and my second plan of just paying out of pocket for everything isn't going to work either, BOOOO! My third plan isn't looking like much of a plan either. Plan 3 was to put that money into my car and drive it to Virgina but I don't know now cause I think the bearing are going out, again, for the fifth time. Part of me want to buy another car but I really can't afford that. I'm out of debt, why would I want to put myself back into that pit of darkness and despair ? I think I'm going to become a transient and just take picture and blog for the next year.

Who am I kidding, I can't do that. I need stuff, like a clean bathroom and high speed internet and cable tv. Ok, I could do without tv but I need a bed that has clean, high thread count sheets. I guess you can be a transient and have all that stuff if I have a job that send me to around the world. The real question is how do I get that job and what will I be doing? First things first let me apply for grad school and see if I get in. If I don't, then I'll become a transient. Maybe.

Friday, March 7, 2008

Six Months...

It's been six months since I last posted. I haven't exercised in a month and seem to have gain almost all the weight it took me four months to lose. This is so discouraging but I don't really have a choice. I have to lose this extra person Im carrying around. Honestly, it seems impossible. Like I will never really reach my goal. When I do exrecise, but don't eat just right, I don't lose anything so what's the point of killing myself. But buying and cooking and taking food everyday takes up so much of my time that I don't always want to do it. But I guess I am killing myself by not doing anything.

At work, we had a health fair. They took your blood pressure and then did a blood test to see what your Cholesterol was. Mine was little bit high then it should be but not dangerous. But it made me realize that I have to do something cause in ten years when I'm 2 years away from 40, if I haven't lost this weight I will probably be diabetic, have high pressure (as the old folks say) and will have bad knees, back, feet and anything else that can go wrong if your fat and in your thirties. I have to do something and I need some help. I have thought about weight watchers but I know all that stuff about small meals and eating the correct proportions, eating the right fats, and etc. Most of the time I do eat "right". I really abhor fast food. I rarely eat it but I love bread! I really do so thats part of my problem. I think I need to get a job working on a farm or some other profession that's really physical so I can burn up all the calories I eat. I'm going to work on that.